On My Mind...

I need to vent. This is what this blog is partly for, right?

I can be a pretty positive person. A year ago, when this all began, I thought my life was going to go downhill. I couldn’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. I could only see how it was going to affect me negatively in every aspect of my life. Mentally, physically, spiritually, and socially.

But, then I gave it some thought. If I got through the many difficult moments in my 24 years – I’d be able to cope with this. I knew God wouldn’t have given me anything He didn’t think I could handle.

Unfortunately, I had a breaking point yesterday.

I’m not perfect.

I’m human.

The pain was unbearable; like it was months ago, like it was last summer. I was doing well, not wonderful, but definitely better.

I have not had the best luck with medications. I’ve had to go through 4 different ones and I’m currently on medicine number 5. And, it obviously isn’t helping anymore, so now what?

I’m just literally exhausted with this trial and error crap.

Eventually, I do think of happy thoughts.

It’s just really tough at times…

*Fibromyalgia Syndrome: 08-26-2010