Changes

Some people wait patiently for changes in their life. I am one of those people.

I was in a position where I felt stuck. Did I verbally say it? No. But, I thought it; I felt it inside. Where was I going? What did I truly want to do with my life? Where did I see myself a year from now? Three years from now? Seven years from now?

I wasn’t too sure. I had dreams and goals – but everything was at a standstill.

It was a year of debating on whether I was ready to further my education. Last year didn’t quite work out how I had planned. I was going back to community college to do Business Administration. And, then a higher being decided that was not the right path for me. I was diagnosed with a chronic pain syndrome. I figured it was not the right time in my life for schooling.

I really wanted it though; deep down. I enjoyed homework, I enjoyed getting my papers graded, and I enjoyed that feeling of accomplishment. But, I was worried about my health, so it was quickly figured out that the best option for me would be online schooling. That’s where I was stuck again. I didn’t know what I wanted to major in. I was having second thoughts on Business Administration. 

Three years ago, I received an Associate’s Degree in Journalism, but I wanted to write novels, not write news. I wanted to be published.

On top of this, I despised my current job. I wanted to leave, but had no other job lined up. I applied to places, but no one got back to me. I also wanted to get my license. I told myself when I did; I would quit even if there wasn’t another job available to me. Again, everything was at a standstill.

And, then, when I least expected it, my prayers were answered one by one.

It all started with having a session with a palm reader for the first time. I’m not joking. I’m being very serious. You can call it bogus, but it was a remarkable moment in my life.

She told me it was the right time to go back to school and that she saw me in an area of public relations/public speaking. I have a way with words, is what she said. She also told me that I needed to have more confidence in myself. I didn’t give myself credit and I needed to work at it.

Writing is the only thing that has ever made sense for me. I excelled at all my English and Journalism classes. I’m not saying I’m perfect, because I’m aware of the areas that need improvement and I’m okay with that. But, give me a math class and I’d fall flat on my face in a heartbeat! And, I know I do not have confidence. I have always second guessed myself at everything; I question everything.

But, I finally got the direction I needed! After being told this; it felt right– I went to school for Journalism, why not use the degree somehow? It’s what I’m good at. I need to have confidence in myself to be able to make a career for myself. Being a novelist is not crossed off my list, I will still be able to work on that.

So, I started on my search to find a university where I could receive my bachelor’s degree in Communications through online schooling. As of now, I am going through the admissions process.

And, just about three weeks after having my palm reading session, I received a callback from a job I applied for a month before seeing her. This meant, I was finally able to give my two week notice at my current job.

I have never felt better.