My Life

This post is brought to you by a song!  I’ve heard this one plenty of times, but this week was the first time I truly listened to the words.  Yup, it got me emotional.

When you’re going through tough times, you make a connection to the music.

My Life
by
12 Stones

I find myself in question again
And I doubt this Love you've given to me
I hope you understand when I say
I need this time to myself

You speak your mind to me again
You force your words so deep within
You try to tell me how to live
But it's my life

I know your open arms too well
Cause I’ve lost myself there many times before
I need to slowly fall away
Far from the grip you have on me

I find these words were never true
I've lost all my respect for you

That’s definitely what I need - Time to myself.  The amount of hostility has been ridiculous and I don’t want any part of it anymore.  People’s true colors are shining through!  There was always hope that things would change, but there were moments where I kept my distance because I knew better.  Everything that was said has been untrue and I respect myself too much to allow this negativity to continue.  There was a grip on me, but I made a decision to eliminate the poison.  As much as it hurt, it needed to be done.

Wake Up

This post is brought to you by a song!

Wake Up by Three Days Grace

Where the hell are you?

When I need you

Just those two lines alone bring up so many memories, past, current, and future (I think way too much).  It never fails – when those lyrics are sung, I can’t help but cry.

I touched a little on this in my previous post: we need people in our life to support us.  We need an ear to listen, we need a shoulder to cry on, and we need positive feedback.

When we don’t get that from certain people we expect it from, it feels like our world comes crashing down.  That support system that we once thought we had disappears.

It’s a terrible feeling.

Hold tight onto the individuals that you were able to lean on and don’t focus on the ones who have vanished from your life.

Let You Down

I decided to write a different kind of post tonight.  This piece is brought to you by a song!

Have you ever had one of those days when you’re in the mood to listen to a certain genre of music?  On my way to the gym, I wanted to listen to Three Days Grace.  I’ve listened to this CD countless of times before, but tonight, the lyrics to “Let You Down” stirred up a lot of emotions and thoughts.

Trust me

I'll be there when you need me

You'll be safe here

And when you finally trust me

Finally believe in me

I will let you down

I'll let you down, I'll

When you finally trust me

Finally believe in me

Whether it’s a family member or a close friend, there’s always that one person who you think you can count on.  They might give you the speech, “I’m here when you need me” or “You can count on me to be there.”  And, it’s in our nature to have faith in them, to trust them.

But, they let you down in the end.  Sometimes, it happens more than once or twice.  It’s your decision when to put your foot down and to realize that they can’t be relied on for support.

Go elsewhere for a venting session and advice.  Don’t continue to be led on, to build up your hope, only to have it snatched away from you.

We are better than that.  We deserve better.