Moving Forward

It feels as if my head is going to explode. I have many thoughts in my head that I want to say and write out, but I don’t know where to start. Anxiety is in full effect and has been the last few days or so.

I know I can’t change certain things. I can’t and won’t make anyone do something they truly don’t want to do. I can’t and won’t force a relationship upon anyone if it’s something they don’t want either.

I’m between a rock and a hard place as most will say. This isn’t the ideal situation, but it seems like it’s the best thing. I’m overall tired of it all and if this is what needs to happen for everyone to move forward, then so be it.

Seeing Red

I’m speechless.

No, actually, I’m not. I have a lot to say, but I’m too angry.

Sadness wasn’t even an emotion. I skipped it.

All I see is red and I hate it. HATE IT.

I believe in the saying, “Everyone owns their feelings.” There shouldn’t be a debate, but at the same time, I think there should be support for the other person involved in a situation like this.

Sometimes you need to stop to think about the other individual’s feelings; put yourself in their shoes. Sometimes you have to do what’s best for both rather than doing just what’s best for you, right?

I need to cool off.

It's All About Me

Don't try to force me to do something because YOU want me to. It doesn't work that way, sweetie.

I will do things on my own time. Not yours. When I'm good and ready, that's when it will happen.

If you don't like it, it doesn't matter! My life, my decisions, my rules.

It's that simple.

The Struggle

I don't want to get hurt again; therefore, I will not let my wall completely disappear. I'm still cautious.

Decisions I made months ago, have been slightly altered. I'm human. It's that simple.

In the end, I have to do what's best for myself - I have to do what I'm comfortable doing. All I can do is my part and see what it brings. I just pray for the best.