Abandonment

There aren’t really any words to describe how I feel about you.  I mean, there’s a few on my list, but they aren’t very nice.

In my opinion, you do not deserve any kindness, not an ounce of respect.  You’ve been inconsiderate and haven’t shown any interest in anyone’s life but your own.  You’re too caught up in whatever it is that you do, that your family; your own flesh and blood, don’t even cross your mind.

It’s the truth, so don’t sit there and lie about it.  Your lies and excuses go in one ear and out the other.  Save your breathe because your words are pointless.

I just can’t comprehend, and most likely never will, how you can go about your day and pretend like everything is all right.  You don’t notice any sort of problem.  It baffles me.  It truly does.

You don’t see the look on their faces.  But I do.  You don’t hear all their concerns or disappointments.  But I do.  You don’t see the anger and sadness in their eyes.  But I do.  And, it kills me.

I don’t understand why you don’t feel ashamed; ashamed that you’ve abandoned them.  That is what you have done.  I’m positive if you look up “abandonment” in the dictionary, your name and picture would be right there in plain sight.

2011-2012

Christmas came and went so fast this year.  I wish it would have lingered.  I miss it already.

When the holiday is over, you know what is just around the corner!  A lot has happened in 2011 – good and bad.

2012 is going to be full of exciting events and I cannot wait! I will finally get my license! I will pass the first time; I’m staying positive. Everyone said the hardest part was over – the written part, but I’m not so sure.  I think the road test will be much more difficult.  But practice makes perfect and I’m doing so every day until the day of the test.  It’s just around the corner!

2012 will consist of one wedding where I’m the Maid of Honor, so I must start planning my speech at some point!  Two other best friends are planning their wedding and I can’t wait to be with them every step of the way.  It’s going to be fabulous.

I’m doing so well in school right now that I’m excited for the future classes I will be taking.  My goal is to keep this blog going also because it keeps my ideas flowing and it’ll be good for me in the long run.

This coming month I want to learn how to sew on a machine and my mom agreed she would teach me.  I knew how to use it years ago at school but I forgot since I wasn’t doing it at home. Once I learn, I want to buy a machine of my own!

I’m hoping I will still be doing well at my job – I’m eager to learn all the techniques I need.

When the year draws to an end, it does get me a bit sad but I remember that a brand new year means lots of new accomplishments and lots of new memories to cherish.

Be a Man

I don’t care if you’re a stranger or a relative; if you do something that I think is disrespectful, I will tell you off.  Don’t think I won’t.

I will not sit there and listen to nonsense and bad-mouthing.  I will not take it!  Do not lash back at me because I was “wrong” – rethink your accusation.  I was right and you were wrong.

You do not blame a girl for something that was not her fault.  Whether it was or not, you should have been looking out for her; treat the girl the way she should be treated; with respect.

If you talk down to a woman, in my eyes, you are a little boy.  Not a man.  Get that through your head.  And, I will not be afraid to say it to your face.  How are you going to know what you are doing is wrong if no one confronts you?  You aren’t; therefore, leave it to me to knock some sense into that brain of yours!

I’m just sick and tired of all the bullshit.  I apologize for my language.  I never curse in my blog, but this is a subject that I am so very pissed about, especially because I’ve seen it happen not once, but twice tonight.

Flaws

I am not perfect.

I do admit that I have made mistakes in my life – and I still do.

Everyone has imperfections.  It’s part of being human, but I own up to those mistakes when most people won’t.  When I’m wrong, I admit I am wrong.  I don’t ever try to put the blame on someone else.

The classes I am studying have taught me a lot in just one month.

One thing that sticks out in my mind is: “Communication is Irreversible”.  Meaning, whatever comes out of your mouth (no matter if it’s not what you intended to say out loud) it was said and cannot be erased.  So, in other words, think before you speak.  Plan it out in your head before your words fly out.  You cannot take it back no matter how hard you want to.  Don’t say things in the heat of the moment.  You’ll regret it.  Cool off first, process your thoughts, and then proceed.

I know things now that I didn’t know years ago.  And, that’s part of maturing.  You get wiser.  You learn from your mistakes.  You learn to never repeat the same error twice.

If you fail to do so, well then, you’ve got a lot of growing up to do still.