Rewind, Pause, Fast Forward

Did we all see the movie “Click” where the main character is able to rewind, pause, or fast forward moments in his life right before his eyes?  Okay, great!  We’re all on the same page then.

Sometimes that option would be nice, wouldn’t it?  It’s common to think, “Damn, I should have done that differently…then maybe that wouldn’t have happened”.

But, in all honesty, would we really want to have that opportunity?  At one point, I thought yes, but now, I wouldn’t.  I’ve said this before and I will say it again - I truly believe everything happens for a reason.  It might take us some time to figure out why certain events happened, but eventually we’ll have that “ah-ha” moment.

View it as a learning experience.

I’ve learned that I can’t control certain things; people’s behaviors or their way of thinking, it is what it is and that’s the way it’s going to be.  Does it hurt?  Of course; emotionally it tears you apart, it physically drains you, and you learn to stop giving a damn because you are only hurting yourself by dwelling on it.

Turn the negative into a positive.  That’s all we can do nowadays.

Where Do We Go From Here?

Always remember that hurtful words can never be taken back.
 
Once they slip from your lips, the damage has been done.  You’ve hurt the person in ways you could never imagine.  It’s embedded in their brain forever.   If you’ve done it multiple times, shame on you.  
 
If you’ve had to sit through the nonsense several times, ask yourself why.  It must be a very valuable relationship.  However, when is enough really enough?  How much of it can one take?
 
You’ll notice your relationship has changed and can never be what it once was.  Those words, statements, and thoughts deteriorated whatever good there was.
 
The question you’ll be asking yourself is, “Where do we go from here”?

2013

We are just about in the middle of the New Year already!  2012 was a rough year; I won’t deny that.  It wasn’t easy, but I made it through alive. ;-)

2013 is here and I want it to be THE year.  I want this year to be different.  I know I must take it one day at a time in order to get anywhere.  I also know that I need to think positive.  I’m sure I’ve said this before: negative thoughts are harmful.  I’m a very strong believer of “everything happens for a reason”.

New Year’s Resolutions for 2013:

·         I want to write more.  Yes, folks, I’ve been slacking for way too long and it’s not healthy.  Writing is what got me through some very rough times.  Writing was an outlet for me and I need to get back into that routine of writing again.  Not only do I want to blog more, but I miss writing my stories.  I need to dust off all those rough copies and get some work done!

·         I want to read more. I can’t remember when I last picked up a book and read from beginning to end.  I miss it.  This relaxed me also.  I loved curling up and flipping through those pages.  Lately, all the pages I have been flipping are textbooks.  Just like I need to make time for writing, I need to make time for reading.

·         I want to scrapbook more. It’s been a long time since I’ve scrapbooked.  It’s sad to say, but it’s probably been a year.  I have so many pictures I need to print out in order to continue where I left off.  This also relaxed me.  I have fun doing it.  Pictures are my memories: they remind me of the good times, they remind me of things I did and places I’ve been.  That’s also a reason why I keep movie tickets and restaurant receipts: memories.  I look back at all these significant items and think, “Oh! I totally forgot we did that!” And, then it’s like all the memories start coming back to me.

·         I want to experience new places and new things to do.  Everyone who knows me knows I’ve been living under a rock.  I’ve been sheltered for way too long.  I’m not over-exaggerating either.  I want to go to new restaurants, cafes, even lounges and bars!  I want to enjoy a play for the first time, a musical, go to a comedy show!  Go driving to Rhode Island or Maine! Anywhere just to experience it.  I’ll get around to the whole flying thing sooner or later, but let’s not worry about that just yet. ;-)

·         I want to lose weight. I was doing so well and then after October it went downhill.  I didn’t do too much damage, but I need to get in the habit of doing what worked for me: exercising, counting calories, & filling in my food diary.

·         Career job.  I have retail experience: I’m done.  All this money on school will not be wasted.  In just six months, I will hold a Bachelor’s degree.  (Better late than never, right?) It’s unreal.  I’m super proud of myself and now it’s time to actually put my degrees to use.  I need to get my foot in the door somehow.  I’ll work on the whole Master’s when the opportunity presents itself.  I know that will happen.  It’s time to push my fears aside and be confident.

 *Sigh* Confidence….that thing that I’ve struggled with my whole life!

2013 I’m ready for ya!

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