Long Gone

You didn’t get the hint?

You think by doing what you did might make things better?

Lame, I tell ya.

Where’s the apology?  Where’s the acknowledgement?

Even that still won’t make it better, honestly.

Leaving me alone, however, will make it better.

Our friendship boat has sailed and is never returning.

I’m not here to remind you.

Enough is Enough

I would like you to put yourself in my shoes. Just once. Please.

You have not or else our relationship would be very different by now. You would understand my feelings and my actions... or at least respect my decisions.

I can be cordial. That's as far as I can go because I refuse to be in any relationship or friendship where it's one sided.

That's as far as I will go because I am not condoning your behavior.

I do not need the stress and nonsense.

I'm done.

Disappointed

Hate is a strong word.

I don’t hate you.

I’m disappointed in you.

If you thought otherwise, well…then you never really knew me as a person.

Since I haven’t written in almost two months, I thought this post was going to be a long one.  That’s really all I have to say right at this moment though.

Missing

I see it.

It's a reminder of what I'm missing: creating memories.

For my sanity, it was better to pull away, but it still sucks. It hurts. It still hurts.

I saw and heard enough stupidity and selfishness. I didn't want any part of it any longer.

I see it and when I do, it's a reminder of all that could have been.

Love is Love

A beautiful decision has been finally made: The legalization of gay marriage nationwide!  I think now we can stop calling it “same-sex marriage” and “gay marriage” and just….MARRIAGE.  Right?  It makes sense.

My social media newsfeed has been covered with the announcement and it got me to tear up.  So many years ago, it made me upset and angry that two men or two women couldn’t tie the knot.  I didn’t and couldn’t understand it.

This has nothing to do with God or what is written in the Bible. Will we ever hear the end of it?

This is about all individuals having the same right: marrying the one they are in love with.  Why is that so difficult to accept/comprehend?  Like the title of this blog post is: Love is love.  There aren’t any ifs, ands, or buts about it!

Early Morning Thoughts

I'm pretty sure I am too old for this nonsense.  I thought these days were behind me.  Guess I was wrong. Very wrong.

I wonder how my life would have turned out if certain decisions were made years ago.

I wonder how my life would have turned out if certain individuals took the time to think about the well-being of others.

Where is the common sense?  The consideration?

When will the madness end?

Enough already.  We're too old for this nonsense.

More Fun Facts

More fun facts brought to you by…this girl right here.

20 More Random Fun Facts:

1. I’m addicted to chapstick and lip gloss.
2. My favorite hobby is scrapbooking.
3. I only use Crest toothpaste.
4. I love sugar cookies.
5. Sea salt chocolate is to die for.
6. I sleep with an eye mask.
7. I usually, always sleep on my tummy.
8. On my nightstand is a fan – I sleep with it on all year-round. (I thank Will for that one.)
9. I barely use the sunroof in my car.
10. I rarely drink soda. I crave it maybe once a month, but can totally live without it.
11. I don’t like pineapple juice, but if it’s in an alcoholic beverage, I sure will drink it.
12. I like sugar with my Margaritas – not salt.
13. I don’t like any cinnamon candy, gum, or flavored mouthwash, but I sure will take shots of Fireball Cinnamon Whiskey.
14. I admit it: I play CandyCrush.
15. I have an obsession with Pinterest & Twitter.
16. I own a lot of cookbooks.
17. I dislike peas.  
18. I don’t like corn.
19. I do not like Ragú pasta sauce. 
20. I dislike Perrier Sparkling Mineral Water.

No Reason to Continue

In any friendship or relationship, communication, respect, and trust are crucial to keep the connection going.  

There’s no point in having people in your life if you can’t communicate with them, respect them, or trust them to the fullest.  It just brings you heartache by letting them stick around.

This is the reason why I’ve backed away from certain people in my life.

Does it hurt?  Everyday.  But, it had to be done and I don’t regret my decision.

My Life

This post is brought to you by a song!  I’ve heard this one plenty of times, but this week was the first time I truly listened to the words.  Yup, it got me emotional.

When you’re going through tough times, you make a connection to the music.

My Life
by
12 Stones

I find myself in question again
And I doubt this Love you've given to me
I hope you understand when I say
I need this time to myself

You speak your mind to me again
You force your words so deep within
You try to tell me how to live
But it's my life

I know your open arms too well
Cause I’ve lost myself there many times before
I need to slowly fall away
Far from the grip you have on me

I find these words were never true
I've lost all my respect for you

That’s definitely what I need - Time to myself.  The amount of hostility has been ridiculous and I don’t want any part of it anymore.  People’s true colors are shining through!  There was always hope that things would change, but there were moments where I kept my distance because I knew better.  Everything that was said has been untrue and I respect myself too much to allow this negativity to continue.  There was a grip on me, but I made a decision to eliminate the poison.  As much as it hurt, it needed to be done.