Goodbye March, Hello April

This is my only post for March??!!!  I'm such a slacker.

My new course of action is that I'm going to sit down and write out a plan of all the postings I want to schedule on here.  I'm pretty confident that will work out better than what I'm doing now, which is just randomly sitting in front of my computer waiting for words to fill the screen.

I'm going to use the oldest excuses in the book: I'm just too busy and exhausted.  But, I'm making an effort to get back into the swing of things - making time for writing, eating healthier again, and working on my fitness.

Being sick for a week was rough and then I had family visiting from out of state the following week, but now, I can do this!

Let's make the best of April.

Hardest Decisions

Isn’t this the truth?  I believe we all at one point have gone through this or are in the midst of trying to make this decision at this very moment. 

It doesn’t mean we are weak.  It doesn’t mean we’re quitters if we choose to walk away. 

We need our sanity.  We need to protect ourselves from emotional and physical heartache.  We should never degrade ourselves for making a choice that doesn’t sit well with others.

We make decisions for ourselves, not for others.  Always remember this.

Don't

Please, don’t.

Save your breath.

Why do you bother?

It’s truly frustrating beyond words.  I’d much rather you say nothing.

There’s been no acknowledgement or apology and I don’t understand why I’m still waiting for them. My hope has been strong.

I have been a preacher of never giving up hope.  I’m always thinking positive thoughts.

Now, to be honest…I think it’s time to give up hope on this situation.

It’s too emotionally draining.  I can’t take it anymore.  There’s not an inkling of it getting better or remedying itself.

So, please, don’t try anymore.

Save your breath and don’t bother.

Protect Yourself

"You do need to protect yourself in the event that a situation becomes volatile..."

Yes, horoscope...I know this.  Finally.  I will not allow the verbal abuse to continue from anyone.  I am better than that.

I am doing the best I can with my life.  I do not have to please you or make you happy.  I am worrying about myself and my loved ones, the ones who have been there for me through thick and thin, good and bad.  Don't like what you see?  Fabulous.  Look away.

Goodbye and Hello

Goodbye January, Hello February!

Is January really over?  How did it come and go already? 

I have realized that this past month, I did accomplish quite a few things and I’m hoping February will be even better.

I’m going to continue to take one task, one goal at a time so I don’t overwhelm myself.  Anxiety has been creeping up on me every so often for the last month or two.  I’m going to try to kick this unwanted disorder!

February, I welcome you with arms wide open.

Perfection

This quote really got me thinking.  Besides writer's block and poor time management, the reason for the lack of entries in my blog is because I want perfection.  Sometimes this can be a blessing and a curse!

This year I've been really dedicated in writing and editing and I have to say I'm doing a pretty damn good job!  What's the difference between now, a few months ago, or even a year ago?  Goal setting!  It's helping me stay focused on all of my New Year's Resolutions.  Let's continue on with this greatness, shall we?

It's a Brilliant Way

 So, if this is true and we all understand this, why haven't we stopped already?  Pick up the phone to talk or set up a time to meet face-to-face with the person.  We're creatures of habit - that's the real reason why we continue to use long text messages to describe what's on our mind and how we're feeling.  Hopefully there will be a time where we learn from our mistakes.  If you can pick up your phone and tap away at the keys to create a text, you can click one button to dial their number.

Friend

The definition of “friend” from Merriam-Webster.com is – A person who helps or supports someone.

In a friendship, having support is extremely important to me.  I am tired of giving and being a kind-hearted person, and getting none of it back.  It’s frustrating.  If I am there for you, you better be there for me.  If not, how can we be labeled “friends”?  In order for any relationship to work, both parties need to contribute.  I am done putting in all the effort to make a relationship work.

Don’t act like your problems are far worse than mine or anyone else.  It explains a lot about your character…and it’s looking pretty ugly on the inside.  Newsflash: every single person in this world is dealing with something; tragic or insignificant.  But, if I can be there for you no matter what I’m dealing with in my own life, why can’t you be there for me?

Scorpio

I’ve done a little research about my Zodiac sign: Scorpio.  Some things are absolutely true and others don’t describe me at all.

Resentful:  Yes, I get hurt easily by negative treatment, but I am not one to “get even” with those who insulted me.  I just keep my distance from them.

Jealous:  I am not possessive and jealous; far from it actually.

Manipulative and Stubborn: “Scorpio-born has a knack of getting things done their way.”  A little!  At least when it comes to my family, I have been known to be a “baby” because I want something done my way.  This is definitely a negative trait, but I’m happy to say I am not like this too often.

Balanced and Focused: I am definitely mature and balanced, not immature and careless.  With a task at hand, I think everything out thoroughly; pros and cons.  Sometimes I'm a little too focused and zone out.  I definitely work hard, no matter what.  I always go above and beyond the call of duty.

I will never lose sleep over failures because no matter what, I can pat myself on the back and say, “I gave it my best shot!”  That is important.  I do believe we all learn something, big or small, from our defeats.

I am a loyal friend because I believe loyalty is important, but I never, ever forget a wrong – Every wrong done to me gets stored in my memory.  I can keep a secret if you ask me to because I value secrecy.  I definitely choose my friendships carefully – if I can’t trust you, I can’t befriend you.

My home and family are sacred to me; don’t mess with them!